i know i've been gaining alot of weight, 5kg? its massive the fats are bulging the arms the thighs the tummy at my grammy's and i changed into my pjsand then she said wah you put on so much weight uh then she kept bringing up my weight issue for the rest of the night yeah you can tell im very affected or not i wouldnt be mentionin abt it. feels as though being fat is a sin? i wish i was skinny, ppl dont judge you if u look like a stick. ppl judge you when you look like a pig. i will start my intense weight loss thingthing when im back from kuantan in a week. not even gone and im homesick alr. haiz gna miss anthony and my family. hopefully all gets better tmr and kuantan will be fun no mum no dad with me. i feel scared. dunknw why this time round im so hesitant. but when i go batam or bangkok or phuket wit my friends alone u feel fine. weird. haiz. hope ahma stops talking abt my fat body cause she will nvr stop, and that will spoil my mood. :/ haiz freaking wobbly cellulite flabs i hate you!!!!! whyyyyyy... must be all the bubble teas and fastfood since sch started. ill be back! friday probably. chao.